Mary, I'm glad to see that things are a bit better right now. I pray daily that this will continue. I understand some of what you are going through. My daughter, when she was 15, threatened to commit suicide and committed to a hospital for a couple of weeks by the school authorities. It was against my will at the time, but as I look back on it, I'm sure glad that they insisted she receive treatment. She is 35 now and has 3 children. After her divorce, I saw signs of the depression returning and urged her to seek immediate attention. Thank God, she listened to me for a change. She is doing wonderful now and has a good man to take care of her.
I hope that you are able to recover from all of your physical ailments which may help in with your coping mechanism. God Bless You Mary and Phil.