I am moved to do this. I see the new thread and will participate there. In the hopes Mary has not deleted her account just yet and sees this...
something we say, something we do will stir in her that spark of hope that is needed. Mary, if you are there, know that this total stranger is trying to reach out. Stay tuned for a magnificent heartfelt quilt coming your way.
Jeanne in Michigan
Our thoughts and prayers are with you during this time period. Most of our families have been touched by depression in our lives or family members that have struggled with it to the point of suicidal thought and actions. The pain is real, we do understand your pain, even though all our situations are different. Please accept help for your pain as choosing life is less painful to your family.
I'm sorry to have scared you all. It was rude of me. I was venting and was very depressed. I am in pain most days and some days get worse than others. Some days I can handle it and some days...well...I would rather not. I suppose I was reaching out for help, as in a friend. It's hard being in an area where I have no friends close by. Fortunately, Diana and Sara live in East Tennessee but it's difficult to get together as they are busy. I just get so lonely even with my hubby around. I miss having girlfriends nearby. I was truly blessed when we lived in Florida to have two amazing women as my close friends. My fur babies help but it's just not the same.
I was angry and my post was from my hubby's phone at the hospital on Sunday/Monday. I got out today. I need to be here with Philip as he is only 3 weeks out of open heart surgery. He shouldn't be alone and I am the only one he will rely on. I guess the whole situation really threw me for more of a loop than I thought.
Anyway, I'm fine. I hope any quilt you create will be given to someone in much more need and more worthy than me.
Again, I'm sorry I worried you.
You did scare us but it is because we love you and want you to be as happy as possible. I know how depressing constant pain can be and I also understand how there are days when we just want to give up. But you sounded like you were past the stage of just having a bad day, I have you in my prayers daily and want you to be the best you can be. Hugs coming your way.
Mary, I'm happy you are feeling fine now. I know what you mean about having girlfriends near. I've had 2 very close BFF' live nearby since our children were in grade school but for the past few years I loose them for the winter months to Florida, its very lonesome without them. But and that's a very big BUT, I have my QCA family to fill in for those long lonely winters. Every morning when I wake up I thank God for another day and then I go strait to my computer to chat with my QCA family. They make a big difference in my life so please don't go away, let us fill in for your loneliness. As for giving your quilt to someone more worthy, NO, we are putting all of our love into making this quilt for YOU! End of story! When you receive it feel all that love and caring we are sending you. (((((HUGS))))) You are in my thoughts and prayers, God Bless you.
Mary, Mary, Mary, I am so delighted to hear from you and delighted that you are feeling better. Just remember that you have friends here. I know that it is not the same as a real live person you can be with, but then most of us have our limitations too, I know that I don't have someone close to me that I can vent to either so in some way I feel what you are going through. Some days are easy and some days are the pits. Right now I just love that you are talking to us. I pray for you always. Ginny
Mary, I am always looking for someone to connect with, too. I have no family here. If you would agree, we can get together once a week or two for a gap session and coffee. Or just any time you just need an ear or shoulder. Bob is a hermit because of his PTSD but he doesn't object with me going and doing things. I'm there for you whenever you need me. Huggs
Diana in East TN
Please let us be your friends from afar and lean on us. We are here. We have all been through things and can relate.
Quilt, have fun, spend less time worrying if it is perfect.
I agree the quilt goes to you!
Mary I was so glad to see the post from you when I got home from work. Many of us are in the position of not having close friends anymore and QCA can help fill that void. Please continue to hang out with us. Know that we are continuing to pray for you. Like it or not you'll be getting that quilt. Hopefuly it will make real to you the fact that you have friends here.
Mary, it's great to hear from you sounding a little more normal. We care about you and the quilt is just to remind you that - for you to wrap up in every time you need a hug and we're not around.
I'm glad you're ok.
Mary, it was a relief to read your last post. Sam and I continue to keep you and Phil in our prayers
gini in north idaho
Mary - I'm glad you're feeling better, and were able to vent here. We all need to do that. You have friends here, me included.
Mary, I just opened this thread. As I was reading the first few posts, I kept thinking that if I get in trouble, I want each and everyone of you in my corner. Being in pain, caring for a loved one while wrestling with depression is really knocking the stuffing out of you. Know that quilts made here are made as a group hug for people who need it. No one can judge worthiness, but I sure believe that with you giving everything you could give at this point in time, you do need this big hug.
please listen to your friends here. We care for you and want you to feel loved. You should never apologize for needing help and support. You are human. Please accept our love and prayers. Get feeling better and stronger.
Angèle from NWO