Welcome to my new look - Changes

Published Tue, Apr 3 2012 5:45 AM

As much as I loved the old theme of my blog, it was just too difficult to read. Unfortunately, I was unable to change the font color.  And I didn't find it so difficult to change the theme as I thought it would be. Hopefully, you will find this easier on the eyes.

Changes. I'm Lutheran...we don't like changes. Just ask Garrison Keillor! I love that man's humor!! OK I'm getting off the subject here. That's because I don't like change and there certainly has been a lot of change in my life in recent years!! I've uprooted myself and moved across country once again. Only this time I know people...or do I?? They say you never can go back...take my word for it, it's true! It's definately not the same. It has definately changed...maybe it's me. What? I've changed? How can that be? I'm still me, aren't I???

Recently, one of my best friends told me that she doesn't like the new me. Huh? The new me? What is she talking about? My caregiver talks about my "new normal".  My new what? Have people lost their minds?? Have I really changed?

OK, I do understand my new normal. It's my physical self...I have no strength, no immune system, my system has a very fine balance. But when talking about my personality, I didn't realize that had changed too. I guess brain trauma and post traumatic stress does affect one's personality. Gosh, if I've offended anyone, I'm truly very sorry.

Blogging is a way of getting my feelings out and also a way of sharing my faith.  If it weren't for my faith in God, I would not have survived the past 4 years. It's only been very recent, that I've actually accepted what has happened to me and now I have to figure out how to live with it without being bitter. You see I have no memory of t he accident itself. I have spent the past 4  years just trying to get from 1 day to the next. I don't want pity from anyone...that is the very last thing I'd ever want. I don't want criticizm either...that's negative and I can't deal with negativity.  I need positive friends who can encourage me in my faith and activities.

Change...I don't like it, but life happens and with it comes change.

God's blessings to you.

Linda                                                    

 PS. Indy had a tummy ache yesterday. I thought he was eating grass...turned out he was eating peanuts and peanut shells that the squirrels were leaving in the yard!!!! They left their peanuts in place of taking the bird food. At the moment Indy is sleeping at my feet and must be dreaming...he's growling at something!! Indy has made me laugh so much since he's been with me! Now if we can do something about housebreaking! Talk about change!!!!!!!!

Here's Indy sleeping this morning just before he woke up.

 

by Linda

Comments

# Barbara said on Tuesday, April 3, 2012 7:39 AM

Linda I really llike your new format and Now I can read it, Your other was really pretty but these old eyes had trouble seeing your words,

I can really understand your feeling on some of your words in regards to  TBI , I use to care for a woman that had been hit by a train, she also lost heer 4 year old daughter in the accident , I didn't know her from before ,but She was doing well most of the time, She had her good and bad days,  Ithink you have done an amazing job of recovering from yor orderal and it does change people , but if they love you they have to understand those changes an accept them, I think you are doing well to know you have had to redone your whole life and that you have the will to conitue to improve, I think your adopting Indy was a good thing for you both,  Bless you and take care ,we are always here to listen ,even on the bad days ..

# Nana said on Tuesday, April 3, 2012 11:47 AM

Linda I really like the new format much better.  It is so much easier for me to read.  Even though the other background was beautiful.   Change is tough but it happens to all of us.  Each person has to find their own way of coping and come to grips with the changes in their lives.   It takes longer for some than others.   I pray that you will find that "good" place for you and find peace and happiness in your life.    Indy is definitely good for you.  Now you have someone that needs you and depends on you so that you can take some of the focus of your life off of your problems.   God Bless.

# Pamela said on Tuesday, April 3, 2012 5:45 PM

The change is good! I did struggle to read your blog and got through it fairly well. But, I like this much better.

If you've changed, it must be for the good. I didn't know you before and "this" you is pretty special. We cannot ever know why things happen to us, but God does say that He will "go before us" and He is in control of all things. Whatever God has in mind for you, He felt that you were able to get through it and will use it for Good! Your faith has been encouraging to me.

# Cindy said on Thursday, April 5, 2012 4:07 PM

Linda,

Thank you for sharing your thoughts AND your faith. I will pray for grace and continued healing for you. It is hard to go back and it doesn't have anything to do with you any more than with them. We all change, so do they!

Change is for our own good, we can't grow if we don't change.