January 2012 - Posts

Going Home
Sat, Jan 28 2012 11:28 PM

You read that correct...I'm going home! I leave February 22 right after the QCA Get Together. I just need to go home and be in my own surroundings. I talked to my oldest grandson, Christopher today. He was so excited because I'm coming home earlier than planned. He ran to get his step-dad, Nate who was taking a nap. Because my voice still isn't strong, I couldn't stop him. Poor Nate! I explained I was coming home and I would email my itinerary and would he mind picking me up again from Amtrak at 1:00 AM? Yes, that was AM...just one hour after midnight. The only time the train goes thru Cleveland. While I was on the phone with Amtrak, I also stressed that my wheelchair is for ME and not my luggage!! And yes, you read that correctly too. Everytime I go thru Chicago, the Red Cap service gets worse. Coming out to Arizona, they actually put all my luggage onto my wheelchair and left me standing! They came back and asked why I didn't follow them to the lounge. Hellooooooo! Did I really have to explain to them that the wheel chair was for me? I get so tired of having to file complaints every time I go thru Chicago.

I regressed there. Chicago gets me off on a tangent. I'm going home! I've just had too many health issues crop up and some are serious. This next week I will be undergoing tests to find out why my feet are turning blue. Obviously it's a circulation problem, but it can be one of 2 diagnosis. Neither are good and both are hereditary. Serious heart disease runs in the family. I want to go home and see a vascular doctor there and if a procedure needs to be done, I want to recover in my own home. I'm still on voice rest from the respiratory infection from 2 weeks ago. One of my doctors back home feels there is damage to my esophagus due to acid reflux and this could be why I still have a sore throat and why I can't adjust to the cpap. Also the lymphodema and nerve damage in my feet and legs is getting worse so I need to see my neurologist. Also the doctor here upon seeing my latest blood tests that I had done just before coming out for the winter, discovered that I'm pre-diabetic. This was something I did not know and I'm sure my doctor in Ohio was going to tell me upon my return. One thing is certain.....I'm feeling like Humpty Dumpty and they can't put me back together again. I'm going home!!

For all the things going on, I'm seeing more reasons for the need of a service dog. There are so many things Indy will be able to do once he has been trained. We will need to spend several months together before we can start the training. I must go thru the training to so I know how to say the commands. The vet checked him out the other day and gave him the go ahead. Said he's a smart little guy. He's 18 months old and will be almost 2 yrs old when we start training. That is the perfect age to start him. Even in training, he will be able to go anywhere with me. I can't wait to get home and have Indy brought home. I got some new photos the other day. I think I put them on the previous blog. Christopher and Noel will be surprised when they see him! I've been keeping it a secret.

My brother Bill called from California today. He hasn't had a chance to come over yet. You see he's my brother from Daddy's second marriage. We've never met! So he's going to see if he can take his vacation before I leave Arizona so he can come to visit while I'm here in Arizona. I'm so excited about meeting him. I've met the older brother, Robert. Turns out Robert lives in NE Ohio about a one hour drive from me. He's come over to visit several times. We have shared many baby pictures and he has given me photos of Daddy. It turns out we have many of the same interests, so we have enjoyed each others company. He brings his wife Jen and 2 of his grandchildren over. They will sure enjoy Indy! So now I'm really looking forward to meeting Bill and his wife Jeri. I didn't think to bring any photos with me, but hopefully there will be a time that perhaps they will come to Ohio and we can all get together. There is still another brother, Gary. I hope someday to meet him too.

In spite of the depression I'm feeling today, I managed to make my February BOMs and posted them this evening. I even managed to clean up the area that I'm sewing in. This morning I finished one of the quilted blocks into a pillow that the alzheimer quilter had started. I just have a wall hanging to finish and I'm taking the quilt tops home to quilt. Then that whole project will be complete.

This morning's devotion was talking about "Begin with God...He give Joy". I've been struggling with that one today because I wasn't feeling joy this morning. But as the day progressed I found joy in the future meeting with my brother Bill, talking to 2 of my other brothers yesterday, talked to Christopher today, made arrangements to go home, and I'm going to have my little Indy soon.  James 1:2-3 says "Consider it pure joy, ...whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance." Thank you God for the Joy. Amen

Homesick
Fri, Jan 27 2012 7:28 AM

Good morning, Jesus. I'm homesick. I miss my house, my neighbors, and just being able to relax in my own surroundings. Thank you for the blessings of yesterday, dear Jesus. You are so awesome! AmenI

I want to go home! But I have some obligations here in Arizona that I must see complete first. First and formost the QCA/RWYS Luncheon next month. I am so looking forward to that. And Sheri is coming to town and I'm looking forward to getting together with her. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to go to the Expo with Maggie due to this respiratory infection I've had for the past week. I'm slowly recovering...still have a sore throat. Saw the vascular doctor the other day. I have neuropathy in my toes which is due to the nerve damage from the accident. The swelling in my feet and legs is from the lymphodema...also from the damage caused by the accident. My feet turning blue is another ball game altogether and most likely hereditary. I have to go for testing on Monday and Wednesday and will get the results on Wednesday after that test. The doctor has given two possibilities and either way I will not be happy. Depending which diagnosis she gives may determine whether I have to go home immediately or not. One of the diagnosis is serious. Please keep me in your prayers.

My caregiver and the doctor has said that I need an adjustable bed when I go home. So I've been looking online at adjustable beds....YIKES!!! Do you know how much they cost? Between $1,000 and $3,000!!!!!! Medicare will pay for a simple crank style with foam mattress. I am unable to do a crank style and foam mattresses release gases after a while. So that is not an option for me. I was not going to get any Medicare benefits on this. Yesterday morning I was talking with my neighbor and she said to look no farther. They had a practically new adjustable bed in their upstairs bedroom that I could have. It has all the bells and whistles likes remote control, wave action, vibrate, adjustable head/legs, and it's twin size like I wanted. I just have to find 3 strong guys to move it. It just so happens my other neighbors are guys who for a home cooked meal will probably help out. What a blessing I have received! Our God is an awesome God!

Another blessing I received yesterday....more photos of my little Indy. I can't wait to get home so I can bring him home. I haven't even held him yet and I love him so much!! My vet says he's adorable and a sweet little guy. I had her go over and check him out. She said he will make a great little service dog. Here's the newest photos of Indy...Isn't he a cutie??

I've started my block for the Round Robin. I almost forgot about it and it has to be done by Feb. 1. I will make the deadline. Last night I made the main part of the block. Now I want to add a border on it and embroider a Bible verse on it. The finished quilt top will go to my daughter-in-law, who has been a light of faith and helped me thru a bad summer last year. We have cried on each other's shoulders...long distance. She's in California and I'm in Ohio, but we're there for each other. We haven't been able to Skype since I've been in Arizona. I'm sure Joshua and Mila have grown since I last saw them.

Thank you for all the birthday fabrics. I joined 2 birthday clubs and I don't remember who is from which club. So after my birthday I will post a photo of all the fabrics together. So far most of them have been 30/40s...Yipee!! Perhaps I'll finally be able to make the Eleanor Burns sampler quilit from the "Egg Money" book. I like all the blocks and all the quilts in the book. So the easiest thing to do is make the sampler quilt. I've been collecting some 30/40's fabrics too, so I should be close to having enough.

Need to eat breakfast at least that's what my tummy is telling me. By then the alarm on my cell phone will go off the remind me to take my meds. Finally came up with a way to keep me on my toes about taking my meds. Believe me that alarm gets my attention!

Have a great day everyone! Hugs.

Finding a Caregiver
Mon, Jan 23 2012 11:31 AM

Wow...two blogs in one day! I was just settling down earlier to chat on line with Irene when my cell phone rang. It was one of the agencies I had been trying to reach. I just sent a message to Irene apologizing for cutting her off. I told her that to get an agency to return your call is major!

I've been trying to find a caregiver for myself in Ohio. I have a caregiver while I'm here in Arizona. For the past 2 years I've been handling my own medical care and not doing a very good job. By the time I get home from a doctor appointment, I've forgotten the diagnosis, his instructions, and if I hadn't gotten an appointment card, when the next appointment is scheduled. I call Barb, my caregiver in AZ, but I am unable to give her much information. So obviously she is unable to help me much.

I have called from one agency to agency to agency on aging to find a caregiver. Why is this so hard? The focus is on respite care for the caregiver. Of course, I know that. I took caregiving courses...I even co-taught caregiving course as a parish ministry assistant. I volunteered at the Beatitudes D.O.A.R. ViCap where they also have a program for respite care for the caregiver.

I was told to call the hospital patient advocate office. They only help the patients in the hospital.

OK so if I don't have a family member or friend who is not willing to be my caregiver, what am I to do? Well, I have a friend who is my caregiver...so called. She is unwilling to go to my doctor appointments and help manage my care. We won't go there. I don't want to ruin our friendship over this. How does one find a caregiver? Why has this question never been addressed? If it has been addressed, why is it so bloody hard to find the answer???

Oh my, my head is starting to hurt. I need to go quilt!

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Loosing Friends as We Get Older
Mon, Jan 23 2012 6:49 AM

As we get older, we start to loose our friends. Last summer Hal passed away. I was shocked when Pastor called me with the news. Then in November before coming to Arizona my friend Carol passed away from lung cancer. And now this past Wednesday my friend Linda passed away. Linda suffered from diabetes and had gotten an infection in her foot a couple years ago. That infection never healed and little by little her leg was amputated. Last winter when I was here in Arizona I was in charge of the church photo directory and I am now so very happy that I decided to include all the shut-ins. I had a wonderful visit with Linda. She was in rehab, was happy, and seemed very hopeful. They had fitted her with an artificial limb and she had just taken her first steps. Linda was so excited and was telling me that when I came back next winter she would be walking. Linda is now walking with our Lord and Saviour in the Kingdom of God with two legs. Lord God, it is so hard loosing our friends as we get older. We know that they had suffered from illnesses and much pain while on this earth. But, now they are in your Kingdom again whole and no longer suffering. For that we thank you and praise Your Name. Amen

Since I'm confined to the house for 10 days due to a respiratory infection, I've been working on my little Indy's accessories. I ordered his doggie ID tags, collar and leash. His foster mom told me that he sleeps on a bed pillow. I made 2 pillowcases for him. And, of course, I had to make Indy a couple placemats for his doggie dishes. I also made his foster mom a set of coasters from some of the scraps. I'm going to make a little quilt for him to lay on for the sofa when I get home. I bought some fabric, but I have a coordinating fabric at home.

Was hoping to go to the Sewing/Quilt Expo this week with Maggie. However, as my caregiver Barb says "my wings have been clipped". Had my list all made out too. So I'm shop hopping online and not having much luck finding the backing for my guest room quilt. May have to wait till I can get to Amish country this summer.  So today I'm going to switch gears and help my friend to make another pirate costume for the Renaissance Festival. Last year I supervised him to make a reversible coat from a pattern that didn't even have a lining. Oh, that was fun! But considering I've done historical costume in the past with virtually no pattern, this wasn't too hard. He just keeps throwing little surprises into the mix. This year's surprise...he wants pockets added. Not patch pockets, inset pockets, not in the seam., welted pockets...no pattern. Ok the thinking cap is on. Thank you internet!!!! It took a long time, but I finally found it on the internet. Is there nothing you can find on the internet?? He's making the coat. I'm making the pants. Believe me, I have the easy part.

Now that I've been up since 1:00 am., I think it's finally time for bed. Good morning.....zzzzzzz

Hugs. Have a wonderful quilty week everyone.

Another Day, Another 50 Cents!
Thu, Jan 19 2012 7:17 AM

Good morning, God. I am trusting in You that this will be a good day. I have to go to the dentist, my feet are already swollen (again), and my body hurts as always. But thank you Lord Jesus...my massage therapist comes this afternoon! Praises for all the blessings You give me! My caregiver Barb, spent the afternoon with me yesterday to start working out a diet plan. Barb has been a great friend to me. What a treasure and blessing! Yesterday we also lost a good friend, Linda S. Please wrap Your comforting arms around her family during this difficult time. Now Linda is no longer in distress and is glorifying in Your Kingdom. I thank You for the wonderful visit I had with her last winter and that I will have that final happy memory of her.  Lord God, thank you for the many undeserved blessings and grace that you give me. Amen.

Good morning to all my quilty friends! The other day I finished the quilt for my granddaughter Hanna's 6th birthday. Even got it to the longarm quilter the same evening. I'm really ahead of the game as her birthday isn't till March 25. Normally I would quilt it myself, but my machine is in Ohio and I'm not. Besides this way I can work on other things. While Marlene and I were on our little (did I really say little?) shopping spree, I picked up some fabrics to make my little Indy some placemats for his doggie dishes and some pillowcases. His foster mom says he sleeps on a bed pillow. I also recently found some more doggie fabric and I'm going to make a little quilt for my sofa for him to lay on. Like my brother said the other day, Indy will be spoiled before I even get him home!! I can't spoil him too much, because once we've spent some time together and he is comfortable with me, we will be going into training for Indy to become my service dog.  Yes, I said we will be going into training. I have to learn all the commands, etc.  Once Indy is in training, he will be able to go everywhere with me.

I'm also, after taking a little break, back to work on my Reap What You Sew project. I'm almost finished with another pillow. We are giving this to the daughter of the alzheimer quilter, who has 4th stage breast cancer.  I've posted the 2nd quilt top if you haven't seen it. I will be taking it back home to quilt along with the first one. Once the pillow is done, all I have left is the wall hanging. I really need a lot of prayer about this one. It is so beautiful and I want to do it justice.

Looking forward to the Sewing/Quilt Expo coming up here in Phoenix and meeting Maggie, who is taking me. Maybe, we can meet up with Marlene and her friend. Oh what damage we could do!! Eh, Marlene?  I'm on the lookout for wide backing for the quilt I'll be making this summer for my guest room.  Always have to look at patterns.  Why? Who knows....I have more patterns than I know what to do with. I'll never have enough time to make them all. I could probably start a pattern store along with a fabric store. Hey maybe if I buy enough notions, I could have a business. I could call it....JoAnn Fabrics!!!  Oh yeah, someone already thought of that one! 

My friend just left for work saying, "Another day, another 50 cents."  Cracked me up!  Have a wonderful day!

God First, Quilting Second
Mon, Jan 16 2012 8:20 AM

Lord Heavenly Father, I haven't been starting my days with You again. Here I am singing Your praises in spite of my monster headache. Yet You bless me so richly with all my quilty friends. I had a wonderful time meeting Marlene on Friday and going to 35th Ave. and Mulqueens. You surround me with so many friends at church. There are so many talented people You have placed in my life....like David with the new song he wrote and sang Saturday evening at church...so beautiful. Thank you for my AZ caregiver and friend Barb, who spends a lot of time helping me understand what is going on with the latest medical problem I'm having and researches ways for me to find a new caregiver in Ohio. And thank you for the friends in Ohio who call me to make sure I am ok here in Arizona. My prayer request for today is for Cousin Deb's son-in-law Jared who was in an industrial accident last week. Please wrap your healing arms around Jared so that we will walk again. And give Kylie patience as she deals with all the physical therapy that Jared will be going thru and the care of their newborn baby. Father, help me as I continue my care from all my injuries and recent incident with PTSD this past Saturday. Singing Your praises and thank yous, in Your Holy Name. Amen

Thanks to Marlene on Friday, I went to 35th Ave. and saw their new store. Were we ever blown away! The store is HUGE! It's a shame I had just spend an hour with my financial advisor before Marlene picked me up. Otherwise, I would have spend a very large bundle in that shop! Instead I contained myself...you have no idea how hard that was...and only bought what I needed. My total only came to $42. Then we went down the road to Mulqueens on 59th Ave....a smaller shop. I could have easily spent another large bundle. They had some wonderful Christmas fabrics on sale for 50% off. Again I put the brakes on and only bought 2 fat quarters to make Indy a Christmas stocking (I have fabric at home to go with it), fabric for 2 gals in the bday club, a panel for a secret, and a fabric for Indy's pillowcase. Found out he sleeps on a bed pillow. My bill at Mulqueens only came to $35. So I didn't do bad considering when I go to Amish country to the quilt stores I spend over $200. Perhaps I should meet with my financial adviser every time before I go fabric shopping! Saturday afternoon Jim wanted to go to JoAnn Fabrics. I found fabric for 2 placemats for Indy and spent just under $20.

Due to the PF Chang marathon, I was unable to get to church yesterday so I sewed all day. I almost have the quilt top done for my granddaughter Hanna's 6th birthday. She loved Cora's quilt that I made at Christmas time with all the butterflies and flowers. I've used some of the same fabrics and some new fabrics, made snowball blocks, sashing, 3 borders, added butterflies and flowers. Today I will machine applique the butterflies and flowers and hopefully get the backing and batting pinned to the front.  Maybe I'll take it to the longarm quilter instead. She did a good job. Then I can start on Indy projects and finish up the RWYS Precious Projects this week. Sounds like a plan! I'm also under doctor's orders to start elevating my feet every 30 minutes. That puts a damper on productivity. Wish I had brought one of my Crabapple Hill UFOs with me.

Blessings to my quilty friends for a wonderfuly week and hugs to you too.

PRAISES!
Fri, Jan 13 2012 6:13 PM

I'm a bit lax and I think we all do once we receive what we've asked God to give us. But I want to sing praises and thank yous to God for giving me Indy! I can't wait to get back to Ohio so I can meet him and bring him home! Has everyone seen his photo? Been showing it to everyone...at church, at my quilt group here in AZ, when I'm shopping, the neighbors. Emailed it to everyone back home. Posted it on Facebook. It's posted on QCA and Quilt with Us.  Have I missed anyone? Don't think I mailed it to my brothers and mom...they don't do internet. Guess I better print copies and mail it to them. Don't want them to find out I've added to my family from the family grapevine gets to them before snail mail... That is if it hasn't beat me! I just ordered Indy's id tags, collar, and leash. I'm going shop hopping this afternoon, so I'm looking for doggie fabric to make him a couple placemats for his doggie dishes. I also want to get some fleece to make him a sleeping mat for the bed and sofa. Praise God! I finally have my puppy! Well, I will have him when I get home. So I'm cutting my winter short and leaving AZ the end of February. Mommy's coming home Indy!!!

Meanwhile, I finished my first UFO for 2012. It's my 2006 retreat quilt made from Civil War reproduction fabrics. My friends took it to the longarm quilter as my Christmas present. Two days ago I finished putting the binding on. Perhaps today I'll get photos taken and get it posted. If not today, sometime tomorrow. It turned out great and will look wonderful on the foot of my bed. I'm sure Indy will make good use of it!

Well I need to get going before my friend Marlene shows up so we can go shop hopping. I've never done this before so I'm really excited! Happy quilting! And praise God today for whatever blessings He has given you!

Hugs, Linda

PS. I talked to Indy's foster mom before going shop hopping and found out he sleeps on a pillow. Marlene and I just got back about 45 minutes ago. I found fabrics for 2 pillowcases for Indy. Now I have to find placemat fabric. Thank you, Marlene, for a wonderful afternoon! Hope we can do it again before I return to Ohio. Hi Nana!

Let Go, Let God and I have my puppy!
Mon, Jan 9 2012 1:08 PM

This adoption process has had me stressed out. I had an email Saturday saying I'd have an answer today and had a new picture of the puppy. So I thought if she was bringing him to Arizona I'd better make sure I could get him back home to Ohio on the train since that was the only way I can travel. Oh horrors! Amtrak does not take pets, only service animals. What to do? I simply cannot fly due to risk of blood clots and my legs swelling. When I talked to the foster mom, she said she'd already had him since September and was not willing to keep him till spring. Did that mean I'd have to give up this opportunity? But we're made for each other! I was on the phone this morning with my friend and caregiver in tears. Finally, I said I just have to let go and let God. We finally hung up and I was sobbing. It was 9:00 am and I still hadn't had my shower or taken my meds. No sooner did I get to my room and my cell phone rings.....

MEET THE NEWEST MEMBER OF MY FAMILY!!!!!!!

Indy is an 18 month old Havanese rescued puppy. His foster mom decided that we are such a perfect fit that she will keep him till I come home in March. Turns out she only lives 10 minutes from me. Even tho shes getting so attached to him, she can come visit him frequently. And after talking to my friends and me, we think we are going to become good friends too.  I just had to let go and let God handle the situation. Again, it was a situation I had no control over. Not only do I have a new member to my family, but a new friend too.  Our God is an awsome God.

Well, I'm not getting much sewing done again today. I have my retreat quilt to finish and the RWYS precious projects to work on. I best get started. This is a blessed day indeed! Praise God for all blessings!

May you have a blessed day too!

"We make plans. God laughs."
Sat, Jan 7 2012 10:56 PM

The computer was down for a few days. It's one thing when it's my own computer and I have control over it's demise. (Or at least I think I do.) However, I'm staying with friends for the winter and I don't have control when the computer goes down. Ok, it's about my not having control over something. I'm learning in the last 4 years that I can't have control over every little detail in my life. I've had to let go and let God handle it. I picked up a sign last weekend at the antique mart. It says... "We make plans. God laughs."  Oh, how true that sign is!!  I'm sure God was laughing over my QCA withdrawal and email withdrawal!!

You see, even tho I'm in Arizona with my family of friends, I still need my QCA connection. I have to keep up to date so I'm not out of the loop when I return home in the spring. I'm making several friends on QCA and I can't loose touch and don't want anyone to think I've dropped off the face of the earth. So I had my plans...God laughed. The computer went down for a few days. Ugh! I woke up this morning and was in complete withdrawal! Thank goodness it was a warm, sunny day. I went for a long walk and visited my former landlords since I'm staying in my former neighborhood. Hmmm....do you think that was God's plan???

Mailed in my application to adopt a rescued Havanese 18-month old puppy named Indy. My pain management doctor has for 2 years now told me that I need a companion dog that can be trained as a therapy dog. Due to allergies, a Havanese is the only breed that I'm not allergic to. I have a friend who is hearing impaired that has a Havanese service dog also named Indie. I've spent a lot of time with her and have never had an allergy problem. Two years ago I had put my name on the Havanese rescue site. Last week they contacted me regarding 18-month old Indy. The adoption process was started yesterday so I was most anxious to look at my emails for any news. But of course the computer was down. I had my plans. God laughed. Today tho He didn't laugh long and the computer was fixed this afternoon. The first thing I did was check my email and yes there was a message. They just have to call my vet and I will have an answer sometime on Monday whether I'm approved to have Indy. Oh please Lord Jesus, let the answer be yes! Amen.  I may be going home with a puppy!!

We humans always think that we have to be in control. God laughs! We need to remember it is HE that is in control, not us. And Amen to that!

Be Thankful for Friends
Tue, Jan 3 2012 7:00 AM

 Since my car accident 4 years ago, I have survived because of my friends here in Arizona. Moving back home to Ohio and becoming a shut-in, I discovered that my old friends were no longer...I don't know how to put it into words. They were happy to hear from me, come on over, oh you can't drive, gee that's too bad. I've never heard from them again. That has been hurtful and I've had to try to move on to make new friends. Not easy when you are a shut-in. They were really good friends in the past...that's it...in the past. As one of my best friends told me, when I moved away she had to make new friends too. God works in mysterious ways tho. One day I was on the internet and came across QCA. What a lifesafer you wonderful folks have been! And I'm making quilty friends too!

For Christmas I received a devotional from my Secret Sister called Whispers of Friendship. I would like to share today's with you called "Be Thankful for Friends":    Dear God, thank You for my friends. Help me not to take them for granted...Remind me often how poor my life would be without the friends You've given me. Help me to enrich their lives as they have mine. Amen.

Thank you friends for all the encouragement, thoughts, prayers, and even criticism (I may not always take it well, but probably deserve it. I get over it.). Without you I would be depressed and lonely. With you I feel alive, more creative, more energetic, and ready to move ahead with this new year. So let's get those machines going! Get ready, get set, GO!!!!